Yoke Fillion

I received
an sms on 31 December around 11pm Paris time from my sister…

I knew that
my dearest aunty (my mom’s cousin) has been ill from cancer. She had a breast
cancer history about 15 years ago, but she survived from it since. Returning
from her trip to Europe and USA, she went to do her check up after the heavy
bleeding while she was in the US. The result stated that perhaps she got an
uterus cancer this time. So she had to undergo some chemotherapy sessions.

Because of
the news that my aunt’s health was getting worse, my mom, who was here with me,
decided to return to Indonesia. She called my aunt straight away for getting
some news, and so she was on the way to be treated intensively in Singapore. My
aunt apparently was so weak and she couldn’t eat anymore. So my mom asked my
aunt to wait for her as she’d be heading back home soon.

On 26
December, my mom sent me an sms saying that my aunt was in coma. I was praying
for her again and again… I cared so much for her, as she did so many things
for me and for my mom… She was like a mom to me… especially when I was
little, I used to talk to her about things that I couldn’t talk to my mom. She
was a very nice lady, kind hearted and was always there to help us. She was
never angry, she always gets along with her husband who also got a lung cancer
a year ago and still under medicine’s treatment. Both of them are strong
people, they were never scared of their cancers, they never felt in one second
that they have these life-threaten illness in their bodies.

And so that
day on 31 December, my sister’s sms saying : “Yoke, aunt Yun has passed away
this morning… I’m very sad, what should I do? Why a kind person like her had to
go so soon?”

………… I was
speechless and suddenly burst into tears. I regret so much that my aunt had to
leave us so soon, she was just 57 years old.

Aunt Yun, may you rest now in peace… I’m
sorry that I didn’t call you to hear your voice, to find out how you were while
you were still with us. But you were in my dreams during your crisis, and in
that dream, we had walk together…, but then suddenly you left me, you
disappeared… I was looking for you all over the place, but you were gone… I was
so scared to phone you, because I didn’t want to lose you, I didn’t want that
my phone call became  a bad luck for
you. I was confused… however, one night after the dream, I prayed imagining
your face just in front of me, asking for forgiveness and explained to you why
I couldn’t call you… I hope you understand and that from now on, you watch over
us from heaven above… Good bye aunt Yun, I love you dearly and I’m going to
miss you so much…

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