Yoke Fillion

I have known you since I was born. I felt  your deepest lost since grandpa passed away when I was 5. Eversince, you have become weak and dependent. Eventhough we witnessed your handicaps along these years, we all knew that you realized how much we loved you. I imagine that you’ve been through a lot and I can’t blame that you were traumatized by all the incidents throughout 87 years of your life.

It had been 2 weeks you were hospitalized, without any progress. Yesterday my sister told me on her sms that you were in coma and the doctor gave up on you. He said you will be gone perhaps last night. I knew that everyone prayed for you, for your cure… You slept tightly last night in your coma. I was praying for you the whole night so this morning I wouldn’t receive a bad news from my sister.

I woke up early this morning, thanks to my husband who had to go to work earlier. I switched on my mobile at around 6am, and I was quite relieved to find there was no messages. But then, at 6.30am as I was trying to get some more sleep for at least an hour, my mobile rang for a new message! This time, my sister said, you were in critical condition. I cried and prayed ! I didn’t know what to do… then I fell asleep until another message woke me up. This time says, "grandma just passed away…"

God, I was crying outloud, not knowing what I supposed to do and say. I regret so much that I couldn’t see you for the last time, I regret I didn’t go back home last year. I regret I wasn’t there to see your face for the last time and to say how much I love you eventhough I’m miles away from you.

May you rest in peace Mak Emmi… I know that you’re happier up there. You are now reunited with grandpa in heaven, the only man that you loved… Please watch over us down here… I love you Mak and I kiss you million times… Kiss Engkong also from me as I miss him terribly… I’m going to miss you a lot Mak… See you up there one day…

Your grand daughter,

Yoke…

Paris, 29 April 2008